should be doing my final assignment. jesslyn, please stop browsing and start doing your works!! tomorrow die die must print presentation board already!!! #slapself

OMO, gorgeous... <3.<3
best leader ever! Leeteuk!


Jess

Browsing my facebook and seeing those model friends of mine whom i knew through Elite Model Look, all having great photoshoots, contest, and such while i can just sit here and being so sad about why i don't get the same chance. How do they get contacted by those photographers/brand? how do they know about those contests? by the time i found out about it, mostly all of them are closed already. ironic.

Browsing my twitter and seeing all those tweets about Super Junior's Super Show in Indonesia. Truthfully, i really want to go, if i had the chance and the money to. Yes, i watched SS4 in Singapore already, but, how can you say no to Super Junior? And seconds ago i found out that they are going to held Meet and Greet 2 hours before the show. WTF. I can tolerate that they are going to held SS4 3 days. But not this! Why they don't held Meet and Greet in Singapore?? why?? i really hope that news is just a hoax. Please...?

Hearty Hearty, why so weary?

Jess

Do anything you want, as long as you feel happy doing it, no one has the right to stop you.


Jess

random ramble

well, the urge to blog always came at the most inappropriate time, in my case, it mostly always come when i am supposed to do my super important assignment, and yes, i was in the midst of preparing my presentation slides when suddenly i feel so bored and had this huge urge to type something.
i finally booked my flight yesterday, i'll go to Jakarta on 12th may and still have no plan on when to go to Medan. Made a lot of holiday activities plan with my friend from college and my high school friend, even planning to go to a 3 days trip to Bandung, so this holiday seems like going to be fun :D the problem is i am still quite confused on when should i fly back to medan.. Vera, one of my besties who is now pursuing her study in GZ, china is flying to Jakarta around the mid or end of June, and i'd love to hang out with the girls but wouldn't i be in Jakarta for too long then? from mid of may 'til end of June or even early July? I still have a list of things to do in Medan too, and this makes thing even more complicated -_- better contemplate about it again later after i finish my presentation though.
and somehow, the topic about 'love' always being brought up in either my 'secret' group or among my college buddies. -_- why God? why? Like i am unaware of this fact.. okay, close this topic.

So i went to Spize yesterday with K and Sasha for dinner, the food was great, though service is quite slow. I think it is one of the restaurant in Singapore with foods that match Indonesian's tongue the most. Due to the fact that there are quite a lot of Indonesian there. Pics are still in my camera, will make sure to edit this post later.
And today after attending Sunday service at Marina Bay Sands, me and K went to Paragon for some grocery shopping and Ngee Ann's Kinokuniya for some book shopping, and i finally had bought The Hunger Games, but too bad i can't start reading it yet, have to focus with my presentation! i have to present really well!! have to!
so this means, i am signing out.


Jess

CALM

i really hate to write negative stuffs in my blog, but seriously, i feel so stressed right nowww... nothing is going right, i missed my last class in Term 4, modelling isn't any good either, no news from Elite again and i just still can't accept the fact that i can't join today's fashion show although i had the chance to. WGM is still not showing new episode and the strike is still going on, i began to lost my interest in both of them since i began to watch other couple's episodes and start comparing them, Teukso is still great, but it's just too bad that they had too little episodes. i am so confused on which date to book my ticket for my flight back to indonesia, and also which city to go to, Medan or Jakarta. at least my final project is doing fine, it's on a good track. but still, everything else is not doing good and i hate it.

I discovered that even things that i passionate about can hurt me so dearly, is there anything that won't hurt me?

stay calm Jess, stay calm.. and

Yes, i believe that i can go through this. i'll laugh at this in the end

Jess

hearty hearty, why so weary?


Jess

Questions

Never did something like this in my blog, i think it will be quite fun. haha


1. Last movie?

- Hunger Games

2. Last Meal?

- Rice with Mackerel fish that i cook by myself :P

3. Last chocolate?

-  Mars, last week if i'm not mistaken. Wait does nutella counted as chocolate? if so, then last night. hahaha

4. Last call?

- My mom

5. Last purchase?

- Stuffs for my college project

6. Last kiss?

- kiss? what is that?

7. What's your favorite stage in life?

- when i can adapt to some kind of circumstances and find happiness in it

8. Toe die ?

- Any pastel color will do

9. Marrying a Caucasians?

- I prefer asian actually. 

10. What's your wish right now?

- i have a lot actually. hahaha. wish that i can score well on my assessment, wish that i can spend my holiday happily with my friends and family, wish that We Got Married will be airing again soon, wish that i can find that special someone soon.

11. Life?

- is something that we need to explore and enjoy.

Love?

Baek Ji Young really is the queen of OST! A lot of soundtrack from some great k-dramas that i had watched were sung by her. And the song is really good indeed. This is one of the soundtrack that she sung from the drama 'The Princess' Man'. The lyrics are very touching and i don't know, it makes me feel sad somehow. I love the song and I'd love to share it here :) Enjoy..



Lyrics are on screen, but i want to share the English Translation.

Because I cannot do anything but watch you
I’m sad because I cannot touch you
You who are standing right in front of me
And me who is there behind you
Always there in a shadow
Me who’s crying face is hidden
Me who cannot even beg you to turn around
Again tears are coming

Even when tomorrow comes, I will love you
Even more than yesterday, I love you
The words within my heart
Which cannot be removed
I love you even today

I don’t like being behind you
I want only to be next to you everyday
Me who wants that day to come
Me who lives because of that
Even though I am able to see you
I’m longing for you
Even though I am with you
I’m lonely
The love I do alone
I cannot see the end
Even though I’m weary til I’m full of sorrow

Even when tomorrow comes, I will love you
Even more than yesterday, I love you
The words within my heart
Which cannot be removed
I love you even today
I love only you

That person who like a fool doesn’t know
even one thing that’s in my heart
That person in front of my eyes
Yeah, It’s you…

Even though I am able to see you
I’m longing for you
Even though I am with you
I’m lonely
The love I do alone
I cannot see the end
Even though I’m weary til I’m full of sorrow

Even when tomorrow comes, I will love you
Even more than yesterday, I love you
The words within my heart
Which cannot be removed
I love you even today
I love only you

Bring back memories... Memories that i treasure but want to erase so much at the same time.

Jess

this song should should have existed years ago.. lol

still, it was a good song anyway. enjoy! :)

Lyrics

Ne ape inneun nol chama aneul su obso
Hanmadil mot-he na meiriroke
Barabogoman isso
Jigeum ni du nunen imi ore jon buto
Nega anin dareun geu sarami
Nol bomyo utgo soisso

Morojineun ne dwit moseubi nal butjapgo isso
Dwidorabolkka hotdwen gidereuran-go
Nol gidaryo onjekkajina

Somebody else
Niga saranghaneun somebody else
Nan yogi soinneunde
Nol gajil su omneun goramyon
Ni giokgwa chumchugo sipo
Somebody else
Nan yogi soinneunde
I modeun-ge kkumin-goramyon
Ni giokgwa chumchugo sipo

Barabol su itjiman dagagal su obso
Yonggiga obso morojil got gataso
So i’m waiting and i’m waiting
Kkeuchi odinji moreujiman
Jongmal babo gatdago modu mal-hajiman
Amudo ne mameul molla
Ojing-nomaneul hyanghe ttwioganeun
Ne simjangeul momchul suga obso

Morojineun ne dwit moseubi nal butjapgo isso
Dwidorabolkka hotdwen gidereuran-go
Nol gidaryo onjekkajina
Somebody else
Niga saranghaneun somebody else
Nan yogi soinneunde
Nol gajil su omneun goramyon
Ni giokgwa chumchugo sipo
Somebody else
Nan yogi soinneunde
I modeun-ge kkumin-goramyon
Ni giokgwa chumchugo sipo

Geujo nigyoteman itge hejulle
Jigeum iderodo naneun hengbokhe
Noye dwieso noreul wiheso
Gidarilge geunalkkaji

Niga saranghaneun

Somebody else
Niga saranghaneun somebody else
Nan yogi soinneunde
Nol gajil su omneun goramyon
Ni giokgwa chumchugo sipo
Somebody else

Nan yogi soinneunde
I modeun-ge kkumin-goramyon
Ni giokgwa chumchugo sipo
Somebody else

English Translation

I can’t even bear to hug you when you are right in front of me
I can’t say anything, I’m like this everyday
Just looking at you

Now in your two eyes
Already for a long time, someone other than me
Is standing before you smiling

The image of you growing farther from me, takes ahold of me
Holds me with the pointless hope that maybe you will turn around
I am waiting for you until whenever
[CHORUS] The somebody else that you love
I’m standing here but
If I can’t be able to go to you
I wan’t to dance with the memory of you

Somebody else
I’m standing here but
If all of this is just a dream
I want to dance with the memory of you

I can look at you but I can’t go to you
My courage is gone because it seems were growing apart
So I’m waiting and I’m waiting
I don’t know where the end is but

Everyone says I really look like a fool but
No one knows my heart
My heart that runs solely in your direction
I can’t stop my heart

The image of you growing farther from me, takes ahold of me
Holds me with the pointless hope that maybe you will turn around
I am waiting for you until whenever
[CHORUS] The somebody else that you love
I’m standing here but
If I can’t be able to go to you
I wan’t to dance with the memory of you

Somebody else
I’m standing here but
If all of this is just a dream
I want to dance with the memory of you

Please will you just let me be by your side?
Just like this, as it is, I’m happy
Behind you, for you
I will wait for you until that day…

[CHORUS]The somebody else that you love; The somebody else that you love
(Somebody Else) I’m standing here but
If I can’t be able to go to you
I wan’t to dance with the memory of you

Somebody else
I’m standing here but
If all of this is just a dream
I want to dance with the memory of you

(Somebody Else)

credits to : www.elyrics.net & www.amamiasianpics.blogspot.com

Korean Fever

To my realization, even though i had always wanted to try those fancy Korean dishes, the only Korean food that i mostly ate is their Korean BBQ, and finally, last Sunday, I went for a Korean Lunch with my roommate, Key. We stumbled upon this Korean Restaurant at Plaza Sing, and decided to give it a try.

Korean cutlery! Had always been obsessed with it. Those long spoon and super thin chopsticks!

I ordered 'Jjajangmyun', which is noodle topped with a salty black soybean paste. Since i had always wanted to know how it taste. And it actually tastes really good!

Key's Ramyun

Yangnyum Chicken

This one taste so good! The taste and the crispiness of the chicken is just perfect.

The side dishes. Kimchi, Anchovy, some kind of Potato dish, and some kind of Onion dish.

The side dishes are free of charge. The potato dish is good, the Kimch is okay, but i like 'Ssikek's' Kimchi more.

Satisfied me. Hahaha.

I am basically satisfied with the food. Looking forward to come again here or other good Korean Restaurant to try their other dishes. :)

Anyway, it's Dimple Couple's 200th Day Anniversary!!

I wish happiness and health for the both of them, may their love stay strong despite all of the things that has been going on and may the strike be over soon, so all of us, the supporter of Dimple Couple, can watch their new episodes again!

Jess

^^^ i want ^^^

If there is something that i can get for my upcoming birthday, i'd chose this little buddy. I don't need the modern design or easier to use polaroid camera, i just want this vintage looking buddy with it's own uniqueness.

Now anyone is kind enough to buy me this? Lol

My sketch model is finally approved by my lecturer (woohoo!! after eleven sketch models!!) so i can continue with my technical drawing and start to make the final model. It feels like a huge burden has been taken off from my shoulder when my lecturer said 'approved' (he even sang 'finally~ finally~'. Maybe because he's still quite young, so he play and tease his students a lot -_-" ) One week of college left, and then i can bid goodbye to Foundation studies, which also mean i have two years left in college. Hope i won't miss Foundation like how i sometime miss my High School days. :(

Holiday is coming nearer, and although i was looking forward to it a lot, i haven't even book my ticket --" still confused on which date to book my flight. I just wish that i can spend my holiday happily with my family and friends.

Out of words to say, i'll post some pics then.

K-fever time!! lol

#fangirlingallovertheplace

Guess i'm getting more and more addicted to Super Junior xD

Jess

waiting for my lecturer to confirm my sketch model so i can continue doing my project. wish me luck! i finally made a sketch model which i'm quite satisfied with, so my hopes are quite high this time, haha.

time flies, really. My high school years still seems like it just happened last week, but here i am already finishing my first year of college. Yep, my semester break will start at the second week of May. It still really feels like i just entered college yesterday. Planning to spend my 3 months (yes, 3 months!!) break in J-town and my hometown Medan. Catching up with family and friends and good food of course, and not to forget some karaoke session. aigo ya, feels so happy just thinking about it :P. Missing everyone so so so much!!

Jess

makes no sense

i feel so bipolar.... like i am happy all of a sudden then super depressed at the next second. i was so afraid for my college's assignment because i still can't figure out which design i'd love to develop and there's also presentation, and lecture, and sketchbooks to complete, oh God, and there's still 3 weeks left for this semester which mean my time is getting less and lesser. well, holiday is around the corner though, really miss my family and friends alreadyyyy... but i also have to finish my assignment first and made a good design for a better portfolio. asdfghjnkl;klksdaf

i am going crazy already i think.

aiueo

that awkward moment when you feel like talking to someone so much yet none of your friends is still awake/online. argh.. seriously need to top up my starhub and subscribe for blackberry service again so i can blabber anything in my group, i am missing 'secret' and 'gee'. T.T and disturb my cousin (jowi) if i am a sim, my social bar would be almost empy until i feel depressed already.

Jess

i know i shouldn't be typing this post at this moment since i still have works to be done, but i am just so hyped out because of the recent episode of We Got Married's Dimple Couple, the whole 40 something minutes of their section is too sweet. I laughed and even cried in this episode, seriously, if someone still say that they are acting, maybe they don't have any heart at all. There are way too much cute scenes, and all i can feel from this episode is one word; Love.

This episode start with the scene showing Leeteuk waiting for Sora in their house, while waiting, he wrote down some questions on sticky note and stick the notes on their window into a heart shape (isn't it cute?)

here it is

Then, he played rock paper scissors with himself, and even pretend to have a phone call with Sora, Seriously he looked so damn cute here, i can't believe he is 29 years old already.

This one, this one is so cute!!!!! ^

Here, i present you a more zoomed in version. Lol

Then, sora finally arrived and he literally jump from the sofa as soon as he heard the bell rang. Lol. Sora said that it was very cold, so he gave her hot packs, and i don't know why but looking at the way he gave her the hot pack, i can see that they have that feel that they are very comfortable towards each other and that he cares for her a lot.

Okay, that's all first for today, will wrote the rest of the story on my next post. Patience Jess, patience!!

Jess