is it a sin?

is it a mistake if i think of you more in that day? that one day in a year..

Homeworks, College, Singapore

Hi it's me again here, college just start in less than 2 weeks and my homeworks are piling up, all subject has their own homework and research to do and most of them are due in one week, i'm trying to do my best and putting love and effort in my homework so my portfolio will be great. And for sure, still trying to make new friends, and struggling to adapt with their joke and way of talking.

speechless, dunno what to write.

continue later peeps, when i have the time, lol

@jesslynfeliciaa

can't wait!

really can't wait for my trip to batam tomorrow, yes, i am coming home baby! hahaha, can't wait to have some nasi padang, mcd, pizza, fetuccini, martabak, sate padang, gong gong, and tons of other indonesian food! *drooling* and i miss mommy and dad and my batam home too. Oh yeah, plan to watch transformers too, since the movie ticket here is so expensive and i guess they are not showing transformers here anymore. Therefore, i also have homeworks to do there, my 3 pieces of drawing and my evaluation for the 3D project.Damn, maybe i won't even be able to enjoy my holiday. Gotta finish at least one drawing today!

okay then, no more blogging, homework, come to mamah!

@jesslynfeliciaa

2NE1 - Lonely

holla! here i am, now as what i wrote in my last post, i am so into 2NE1 these days, and this song has been playing on my music player for numerous time, i love the melody of this song and their voices are so easy listening, so, enjoy! :)

lyrics

Jigeum naega haneun yaegi
Neol apeuge halji molla
Ama nal jukdorok miwohage doel kkeoya
Naega yejeon gatji antadeon ne mal
Modu teullin mareun aniya
Nado byeonhaebeorin naega nat seolgimanhae
Neomu chakhan neonde neon geudaeroinde Oh
I don't know I don't know
Naega wae ireoneunji
Geutorok saranghaenneunde neon yeogi inneunde Oh
I don't know
Ije nal chatgo sipeo
Baby I'm sorry neowa isseodo nan lonely
Saranghagin naega bujokhanga bwa
Ireon motnan nal yongseohae
I'm sorry ige neowa naui story
Sarangiran naegen gwabunhanga bwa
Ne gyeote isseodo

The words I’m saying right now, I don’t know if they’ll hurt you
They’ll probably make you hate me forever
You, saying that I’m not the same as I used to be, is not completely untrue
This changed me is a stranger to myself as well
You are so kind but
That’s the way you are but oh
I don’t know I don’t know
Why I am like this
We were so in love, and you’re here now but oh
I don’t know
I want to find myself now

Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this person horrible person I am
I’m sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I’m by your side

Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Nega jalmotan ge anya
Naega isanghan geoya
Imi orae jeonbuteo nan junbi haenna bwa ibyeoreul
Jeongmal jalhaejugo sipeonneunde
Hapil sarang apeseoneun wae

Ireoke haneobsi jagajigo oerounji
Neomu chakhan neonde neon geudaeroinde Oh
I don't know I don't know
Naega wae ireoneunji
Geutorok saranghaenneunde neon yeogi inneunde Oh
I don't know
Ije nal chatgo sipeo

Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

You didn’t do anything wrong, I’m the strange one
It seems I’ve already been prepared long ago, for our breakup
I really wanted to treat you well, out of all the times, why is it when I’m confronted by love
I am shrinking away & am lonely endlessly
You are so kind but
That’s the way you are but oh
I don’t know I don’t know
Why I am like this
We were so in love, and you’re here now but oh
I don’t know
I want to find myself now

Baby I'm sorry neowa isseodo nan lonely
Saranghagin naega bujokhanga bwa
Ireon motnan nal yongseohae
I'm sorry ige neowa naui story
Sarangiran naegen gwabunhanga bwa
Ne gyeote isseodo
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this person horrible person I am
I’m sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I’m by your side
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

Cuz I'm just another girl
I bami werowo nan
Deoneun gyeondil su eobseo good bye
Cuz I'm just another girl
Neomuna werowo
Jigeum ne gyeote isseodo baby I'm so lonely

Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely.

Cuz I’m just another girl
This night is lonely, I
Can’t take any more, Good bye
Cuz I’m just another girl
I’m so lonely
Even though I’m by your side right now
Baby I’m so lonely
Lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

(lyrics taken from www.gadis999.onsugar.com)

homeworks

It's 16.15 now, truthfully i haven't had my lunch, i ate some pieces of bread and triple-M roasted seaweeds to fill my stomach, actually i really feel like eating but i am too lazy to walk to the nearby hawker centre, i thought about ordering Mcd delivery, but it was too expensive, so maybe i'll be just fine with breads and seaweed. Yes, i know, i am torturing myself.

I start my college last Monday, but since 9th august was singapore's independence day and 10th august was lasalle founder's day, i got two days of holidays :p and yeah, i already have a homework, 3 pieces of drawing for my 2D class, and instead of doing it, i've been hanging out with my friends yesterday and watch tv and surfing the internet today, i am so gonna die. *stop procrastinating!!!*

Anyway, i planned to go to Batam this Friday *yeay!!* why? cause my class ended at 12, and i have nothing to do on saturday and sunday, so a trip back home sounds nice :P i can finally eat kfc (with rice!) i miss miss miss indonesian foods so much!!! okay, stop talking about foods, it makes me super hungry now.

Nowadays, i am so into 2NE1, hahaha. seems like i watch too much mtv. --"

well, i am gonna share their song, Lonely and ugly at my next post for my 'song of the day' section

bye!

@jesslynfeliciaa

Sing a song

Well, life in Singapore starts to feel better now, i talked about how i felt to some of my friends few days ago and they gave me supports and motivating words, telling me not to give up and such, i feel much better after that, and suddenly i feel more relaxed, and i can see things from a whole different perspective now. Thank you guys :)

So i just watched Harry Potter and the deathly hallows part 2, i know it's pretty late already, but i was so happy to finally can end the movie, i am sure gonna miss the movie so much! I watched it with my college friend who is also from medan, pretty awkward, but pretty fun too :D

The house i am currently staying in singapore is okay, room is not so big actually, but everything is good, though i wish to live in an apartmen :p i mean, waking up with a view of the city seems cool, hahaha. planning to move out from this place semester, so for the time being, maybe i just have to postpone my 'apartmen room' wish.

my room! yeah, i know, it's pretty messy

running out of words to say, so i'll just end this post.

see ya :)

@jesslynfeliciaa

P.S : planning to join a modelling agency in singapore since i miss runway so much! wish me luck :*