i don't know

I always think that this is my dream, what I always wanted, but now, I can't believe I'm crying while typing this, I miss my family, my friends, everyone that I once had. I feel so empty here. I know, it's just me that still can't adapt. I thought I won't feel sad anymore, because I had experienced this 6 years ago when I decided to move to medan from batam, but still, I feel what I felt during the first few weeks when I just moved to medan, I feel like crying. And now, all I want is just to be with my family.