Thank You SO Much Father

Oh God!
My day felt like really upside down between in the morning and after i got my report paper
I was hyper afraid that i can't get my report paper since my tabulasi score was not really good
I was freakin' nervous when mr tjoriman entered my class and when he only called 5 names (and no me) i felt really blank.. I begged to God for every sec so that my teacher can call my name
And after a few minutes of 'almost crying' moment (i cried a bit though)
Suddenly mr tjoriman called one of my classmate's name !
And i started to beg to God that mr tjoriman call my name
And surprise!
My name was called!
I'm freakin' damn excited that time
I don't care how my marks are, as long as i can get my report paper
I felt so relieved
Thanksthanksthanksthanks Father
Thanks so much
As what i had promised You, i promised i will study harder for the semester test..
:)

And i can do the trigono questions at axel!
Yippie..
Thanks again Father..
I believe You had gave me a great future..

Lovethisdaysomuch (ketularan pela.. Haha)

I'm gonna smile cause i deserve to...

Dunno how to write it out...
I just felt that i am lost..
I met him today when i am at TP 2 watch 2012..
Usually.. Well.. He would gave me a smile everytime i saw him.. But today.. No.. Not at all.. I didn't even think that he looked at me though he talked with my friend... God.. I know that every smile that he gave me doesn't mean anything.. But can he at least just gave me a simple smile? Yeah, i know i don't have the right to.. But.. I miss him so much..
It's really hard for me to forget u boy...

I dreamt of him last night..
Which made me miss him more...

Dunno what had happened with me...
Can u help me, God?

I miss u blue boy..

I miss him
That's all that i can describe about how i'm feeling rite now..

I had just watched the movie 'Definitely, Maybe' it's about love that has lost contact and then they realised that they are in love with each other.
And this story definitely makes me think about my love life..
I want to fall in love with someone else,feel the rushing heartbeat,get excited w/o any particular reason,have someone to make me smile,have someone to know how to treat me,and to hold my hand.
Too much?
Sorry, but that's what i truly feel..
But the problem is, my heart can't let him go.. I don't know why but my heart is afraid to forget him and this feeling..
I don't know.. I just don't know..
I still put my hope in him.. Probably because he IS the one that my heart feels the most 'right' person..
And there's still no boy that can change his position in my heart..
He will always be my first love..



Miss u so much Blue Boy..

Lost

I feel that i had lost my mood with school..
I'm really clueless about why the hell i go to school everyday..
I mean, i only come to school to gossip,chat,talk,sleep,go to toilet,eat, n then home..
Really pointless,rite?


Maybe it's because i've found what i want to study in the future which is art, that's why i only want to serious in drawing n english and i've lost my mood in all the other lessons..
Huah..
What should i do to gain my mood?

Two girls day out !

Me and my cousin,jowi went to sun today...
But no kuku today, coz she went to siantar with her friend..

Anw..
We watched The Proposal, a romantic comedy movie..
The movie is indeed very hilarious, makes me laugh from start until the end..
But it also has a great plot..
So i made it as a "must watch movie" and one of my most fav movie...



Ok, i lied
Well, the true reason of why i made the movie as my fav movie; beside the great story n makes me laugh a lot is that Ryan Reynolds (Andrew Paxton, the main lead) is freakin' handsome..
Oh God..
He has the kind of innocent face that makes my heart melts.. XD
(Aaw..)
And he's the 1st Western Actor that i think awesome.. XP
Haha
(The only drawback is that he's married to Scarlett Johannson! ) T-T
But i still think that he's cute.. :P


And i had watched the last episode of Ethan Ruan's serial "My Queen" today..
Aaw.. I don't want the movie to end! :'(
I still want more Ethan!
Huh
Guess i have to wait until his next movie to be released.. (He cut his hair bald in this serial which i think really dissappointing since he had such a great hair style.. But i still love him a lot XD )
Hehe

What fun day =)
Keep cherish every happiness

Still the girl who tries to think positive..

I got my test result and all that i can say is i'm super duper speechless when i see my score...
I still can't believe how can i got red mark on chemistry as i can do the questions... *Sigh*
I almost cry that morning..
I feel very lazy n stupid really..
I mean, i don't know what to do if i am not able to get my result paper..
I must be lying if i said i'm not afraid..


But then, after i thought about it for a long time, i realised that no matter how sad i am, my score won't get better and all that i can do is face the future, yes, i'll fight for semester exam!
Fighting!
Help me God..



I miss him u know...
Miss him a lot... =(
Wanna see his smile badly...
Ouh, he is still the medicine for my problem... (Am i too lebay? :P but at least that is what i really think)

-positive-positive- ;)