forget him, J !

"forget" "delete" "erase"
i think about those words a lot lately...
uh...
should i?

everytime i saw him i always try to avoid him...
i dunno...
this is the best thing that i can do...
but when he saw me ( sometimes he smiles at me after he saw me ), i felt so so so happy..
so can u tell me what should i do?
this love thing is killing me..


J,
stop dreaming...
should say goodbye?

namun salahkah aku bila kupendam rasa ini...

love that vierra song!
the lyric is so nice!

anyway, it's the last day of exam today..^^
hip hip
i went to TP with my besties..
watch Redline...
kinda cool movie actually, but i think it's "terlalu mudah ditebak"...
haha

i've also decided to buy that cute jacket from faith shop...
gee, it's the first time i shop online...
hope it's great...
actually i also want to buy that cute dress from inghouse..
but i'm afraid the size is too big =(
actually i reeeeaaaallllyyyy want it... >,<


btw,
my amak is back to medan today..
when i'm writing this, she's still in the airport...
wonder what i get as 'oleh - oleh'
haha

Quote : " Sometimes,something that you're afraid of is something that u really want "

( from Redline XP )

my hobbies these few days

argh...

forget to wrote it on my last post..

hehe

i'm falling i love with online shop these few days...

hahaha

i love to see the dresses.. the jacket... the acc..

ah....

and i'm also crazy with making "pisang bakar" these few days...

it's my yummy snack...

everytime when i'm hungry n have time i always made it...

hehe

tadaa... here's my magnificent cooking... hahaha

anw,

i feel interested with culinary world these days...

dunno why...

just love it...

i'm searching for easy cake recipe that doesn't need oven to make it ( is there any?? haha )

because i don't have any oven in my house =(

**looking forward to any new exciting hobbies**

Here I am...

Okay..
it's past 1 o'clock
and i'm still haven't touched my bahasa indo...
hahaha

well, i usually never study that lesson every monthly test too anyway.. =P
idk... just felt really confident that i can do it...
it's kinda easy actually..
maybe tomorrow i'll just review it and then start my exam..
hahaha


anw,
can anybody tell me how to change my blog's skin??
i've tried open www.blogskins.com and it still doesn't work...
humm....
help...
i've forgotten my CSS subject.. lol



" u're too sweet to forget...
...
maybe u don't love me the same as i love u... "
happen to hear this song when i wrote this
love those lyrics.. <3

Pushing u out from my heart.. should i ?

him him him
a topic that i often wrote here ( i guess )

dunno why but i felt really sad today =( ( start from the evening actually )
*sigh*
love him but...
almost all the people i know ask me to forget him...
they said " there are many boys in sutomo.. why do you stuck on him ?? "
hello ??
loving someone isn't as easy as stopping a bus!
anyway,
i also don't want to fall in love with anyone for awhile..
you know, loving someone is tiring for me...


i love u, but..
by the way,
i also have been thinking about that these few days..
forget him...
but how?
how if i still feel really happy every time i saw him?
how if i still wanna see his smile every day?
can anyone tell me?

yeah...
i know we don't keep in touch anymore...
i even dunno if he still sees me as friend or a stranger now...

*sigh*

love him but...
why i feel that he is in love with a girl?
my mind is killing me...

do i still have a chance...?


love him... always...

crying alone

15th n 16th aug
left alone in my room
with opui as my roomate tonite
i was hoping that he didn't make any trouble..
but..
i woke up at 2 a.m and found out that he bite my lovely bolster until the foam came out...
i was so sad, so i cried like crazy for probably 15 minutes or more i guess..
well, maybe u'll think that.. " it's only a bolster, why should u cry so much for it? "
and i'll say.. " it's not only a bolster.. i treat it like a part of me already.. "
" when i had problems, and i cry on my bed, my bolster is the only thing that knows.. when i'm happy, until i can't sleep, my bolster knows... and when i'm alone.. my bolster accompany me.. " it means so much for me..
i'm just hoping that ethan won't be naughty anymore..


okay..
so in the morning ( woke up late. lol )
i went to SC..
study physics
do questions ( as usual )
bla3..
chit chatting with my gals..
bla3...


then went to car's home..
had a lot of fun ( well, at least better than if i'm alone at home )

and now..
i'm updating my blog...
haha
what a day...

waiting 4 u amak...
back to medan quickly pleaseeee
so desperate without u...
hehee...

Life.exam.him

Finally my mom had paid my telephone bill and i can online again..! XD
yippie...!!

Okay... My life so far...

9th Aug..
Had my SC course that day.. Because i arrived late,i was dumped to 3rd floor..
I.m.a.g.i.n.e
As soon as i arrived at the 3rd floor, the first people i saw is him! And i can't see my friend there.. Can u imagine how shock i was ?? And then i do some stupid mistakes that i still regret until today.. =(
But at least i still got that 'senyuman 1000watt' (am i too lebay? Hehe..)

10th aug
I almost cried bcoz of chemist today.. :'(
Ugh..

11th aug
Done well on english n civics today.. Yippie! ^^

12th aug
I think i done pretty well in biology.. =)

And when in sc, i felt so not in the mood to do the math questions, but when he came, he gave me that 'senyuman 1000watt' suddenly i felt excited to do the questions.. Haha..

13th aug
NO test today.. Yippie..

14th aug
I think i did well on math today.. I missed 1 n a half question, can't do 1,n no ans 1..

And it's rainin' cats n dogs today..
But mom had paid my telephone bill n i can blog again..! Yip yip..>u<

I'll continue next time.. Pae..

o..n..l..i..n..e

I'll online from my handphone for a few days... Cause exam will be coming n i am not planning to spend any money so i can online from my PC... Haha..

So like what i've said just now...
Exam is coming really soon, and i go to my tuition almost everyday to do tons of killing math,physics n chemistry questions... However, i kinda enjoy it actually.. Haha.. I hope that with this i can get better score.. =)


-hope that i can find time to write my probs-
xoxo :D

@ school, 4th floor, XI Science 9 class...

Ah.. Xo bored.. N0t in the m0od 2 study today... I'm chit chatting with suvie @ chemist lesson.. Hahaq..

Ah.. The bell has just ring...
Pae