why?

i miss you like crazy
i miss those times
i miss those moments

i love you madly
i love the way you smile
i love just everything in you

there are times when i really really wanna tell you about my feelings to you
but, i am afraid of what other people will think about me
stupid, yes i am
i hate the fact that it's not common here for girls to say "i love you" to the boy they love first
i mean, "why?"
why we may not?
we only want that someone to know, it's not like if we tell them, they have to be our boyfriend
we only want that boy we secretly always look at, we secretly always dream of, to know that there is a girl out there who love him more than he could imagine. we only want them to KNOW
and if they doesn't have any feelings to us, why they can't just act normally? act like how we are before we told you about our feelings, act like "we are friends"
ugh...
i really wish i can tell you

silly?
as long as it is because of you, i'm fine with it.