a little wish on a white post

Today is his birthday, and actually i really wanna give you a few special things today like be the girl who gave you a birthday cake, sing happy birthday song to you, and maybe give you a kiss in your cheek but i couldn't, since i'm your nobody and to consider my love is only a one sided love. If only you know how i envy all his friends around him who can wish him happy birthday eye-to-eye,and gave him a birthday surprise.

So i'd like to share some few things that i wish i can say to you.

"happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you,
happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday to you..
happy birthday boy, hope you have a fantastic day today (as i'm sure your day will be filled with
all your best friend wishing you happy birthday) wish you all the best in everything that you do,
reach every dream that you want,and good health for the whole year."

and last but not least, for once again "happy birthday"

why?

i miss you like crazy
i miss those times
i miss those moments

i love you madly
i love the way you smile
i love just everything in you

there are times when i really really wanna tell you about my feelings to you
but, i am afraid of what other people will think about me
stupid, yes i am
i hate the fact that it's not common here for girls to say "i love you" to the boy they love first
i mean, "why?"
why we may not?
we only want that someone to know, it's not like if we tell them, they have to be our boyfriend
we only want that boy we secretly always look at, we secretly always dream of, to know that there is a girl out there who love him more than he could imagine. we only want them to KNOW
and if they doesn't have any feelings to us, why they can't just act normally? act like how we are before we told you about our feelings, act like "we are friends"
ugh...
i really wish i can tell you

silly?
as long as it is because of you, i'm fine with it.

Something i rarely do

I'll post a few pics in this post, yeah i know that i rarely do this before, but i have so many random pics in my lappie and i'd like to share a few here. Enjoy.. (:

me and stupid

so problem's solved, thanks to my cousin and my best friend, thanks for the time, for listening to my stupid thoughts, and for giving me solutions. so it was just a dream, dream are only supposed to be a dream, nothing more, nothing less. well u can say i'm feeling much better now and i'm trying not to believe too much in supernatural things like that and just believe in God.

-have faith-

i dreamed..

last night, i dreamed that i lost one of my teeth, i googled for the meaning and i found out that it means that i'll lose someone in my family. call me superstitious but this scares me to hell. Please God, i beg for forgiveness if i ever did something wrong, but please, bless my family, God. I beg you. Please God.

- i pray, i pray, i pray -

exam is going to be over... yipppie??

it's already the 19th of august, which means my monthly exam is going to be over soon, but somehow deep inside my heart i don't want it to end. It doesn't mean that i love to stay awake 'til 2 o'clock in the morning to study, but well, you know what i mean dear bloggie... of course it's because of him, it always is. okay, let's drop the subject.

anyway, since it'll be holiday for the third grade science student tomorrow,so me, suvie and julia decided to take a short break from our studying routine and went to Thamrin Plaza to watch "The Expandables". The storyline is quite good, and it's full of great actors, explosion, and blood. Thank's God there is Jason Statham in the movie, so it's quite worth watching to me, cause i adore him. His accent and his acting too.

well, got to go, i'll continue next time
ciao

--don't stop believing--

so here i am...

so here i am...
doing what a gemini-an good at, which is multitasking.. i'm currently studying physics and on lining...
people might ask, 'how can you study that way?'
well, i don't really know how to ans it, but i cant concentrate well when i'm studying without doing anything else like on lining or watching tv (yeah, i do it everytime)
muhaha

anyway, i know it's already mid august and i haven't start my portfolio for my application to Lasalle yet =="
i hope i can start doing it after i finish my monthly test at school :)
i really want to get accepted in singaporeeee :(
i don't really mind whether it is in Lasalle or NAFA.. as long as it is in Design major and in singapore...
because if not, my mommy will send me to Jakarta.. and that sucks..
i hate jakarta traffic, and especially the fact that i have to stay with my relatives there..
i want to be independent! duh..
living with your relatives, is... i dunno how to say it but, for sure, it'll give you much more drama in your life, i already had enough...
i also haven't bought any ielts or toefl book to enhance my english skills, since i already graduate from my last course and i don't go to any english course now, so i'm afraid that my english skills will get worse...
hais.. so many drama...
but i know that this last year will be very "menentukan" for my future.. so i will of course 'use' this last year wisely..
need to get back to physics now, bye!


-- the greatest failure is not failing after we had tried sth, but when we afraid to try to do sth --
and so far, i've made so many failure then... ~.~

thank's God

thank you God for making my wish came true
i myself still can recall how amazed i was when that thing came true
thanks God, thank you so much. . .