Lost : Soul and Passion

At some point i thought i had lost both my soul and my passion. I have a tons of assignment, piling up, waiting to be done, i know procrastinating won't help at all, yet i am still doing it. I am scared that i won't get anything done, yet i didn't do anything to overcome my fear. I am so lazy. Yeah, lazy is the most suitable word now. I thought specialism will change everything, yet i am still the same girl, waiting for the last minute to wrap everything up. I thought that in specialism, at least i will get more excited to do the work, but i was shocked to learn that i am learning more of architecture design instead of interior, and it was not as easy as how i thought it would be. A lot of process, research, practice and thinking need to be done and all my passion just went out from the room. Yes, i sound so annoying at this point, i feel like a girl who is not impressed with everything, and start blaming for everything. Design world is tough, it's like learning all subjects all together. And I am baffled by my own thoughts. I don't want to be like this, spending my day doing practically nothing while holding on to the thought of fear that i can't make it in this industry. I want to be better yet i don't know which way i should go. What should i do? Eottoke?

Jess

Baby there's no no no more tomorrow...