a song from me to you (or actually for myself?? i don't really know... )

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone, I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone, the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.

i logged in and start typing

It's just the second day of the week but I knew that this will be a super hectic week for me. First of all, the teacher day's fashion show has made me absent from almost all of my tuition this month, and not to mention I also skipped some class for rehearsal. After teacher's day on Thursday doesn't mean that I can exhale a bit because my class' inauguration will be held on this saturday and my class monitor had silly-ly choose me to be the head of decoration sector ( for God's sake, can't he see how busy I had been this few weeks? )
So now, here I am, separating the time for rehearsal, my class' decoration, and my part-time job too.


Will post more,

Juno

help meeeee! my brain is abducted by holiday plan!

Help me! My brain can't stop thinking about my may'11 holiday. T_T
I keep thinking about it though I know I have more things to be thought about now, like my college entrance test for example.
Oh God, what should I doooo? :(((((

(Throw them away first, J. U still can think about it later! Think about ur college entrance test first! You need the tuition grand!! Please100x J)

sunday :)

Morning bloggie! Typing this post while I'm lying on my bed with my BaBy blue :*
Anyway, please ignore my few last post, that's the time when I'm feeling so bad about myself. I couldn't say that the problem had been solved, it's just abt 75%, because I'm still trying to be a better person.

Well, my friends and I are planning to go on a vacation on may 2011, it's more like a farewell holiday I guess, since it'd be the last time we could hang out before we go to college. We already decided to go to KL and Genting Highlands, but still couldn't decide where to go for the third destination. I myself highly rercommended singapore, why? Because singapore is so much fun, convenient, and clean. It's quite pricey I believe, but we could be more 'hemat' , right?
I even plan a few places that we should go if we go to singapore! Yes, this few days, I've been browsing in travelling websites like crazy! It was fun though, it even made me think that maybe I should take tour and travel as my third option for the course for college, lol. Afterall, I really hope I could go there, but I'm quite fine with other option too...
I'll post my list of 'places to go' as soon as I can find a computer to blog. Lol

Bye... :*



-stay optimistic!-

......
I'm totally speechless.



Am I such a bad person?
Why I still don't know how to prioritize which one is more important for my life?



Can anyone just kill me?

Maybe I really have a pollyanna disease

I wanna get out of this place as soon as possible. Because I'd rather life alone than being forced to be someone I'm not.


Okay, I snap out. I messed up, I done a lot of wrong things, I dunno how to differ what's more important in my life.
The point is, argh, I'm just messed up.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME???

tell me dear

If I tell a lie, they'll get mad at me, if I tell the truth they will also get mad at me. Tell me what should I do? Tell me how to be a better human.

I could really use an 'F' word right now