stop being stupid!

for God's sake, i should stop spending my money stupidly... but the problem is that i had already become like my stupid habit also.. indeed i should start saving my money.. ouwh.. how i hope that i can do that.. because here i am.. at a salon.. doing pedicure.. i hope i dont get blamed for doing this.. (aku tak tahan godaan. . .) oh God...

just let me smile

so nowadays after all of the cries and tears and everything else, i decided to just let it flow... i'm going to smile too in the end,rite? so why should i think too much? i can act as sad as possible when i'm feeling bad and i can smile as shiny as sunshine when i'm happy, doesn't it sounds great? it is for me... LOL.. so you can say that im in a good mood today.. despite the drama thingy( nah, i dun wanna write anything bout it here.. too complicated ).. so... just let me smile.. -- i wanna be free; i wanna be new and different; be anything i'm not --

i dont know whom i should believe now

it feels like.. everything i do is wrong.. everywhere i am is wrong.. everything i say is wrong.. wrong.. wrong.. wrong.. i dont have any place i this world.. maybe my life is a bunch of mistake... and everything i have is destroyed one by one.. piece by piece... if someone knows where i belong, do you mind telling me where is it..? cause i cant stand everything anymore... i am just.. broken already... i am the girl who no one cares,no one loves,no one intend to pay attention to.. i am alone in this world.. yeah.. i knw that fact since i was a child.. that's why all i can do is keeping myself strong.. but now.. i dunno.. i'm just too weak already... too weak to support myself to keep on facing this life.... i really..really wanna run away...