I could really use an 'F' word right now

Happy birthday

another 24, which means another birthday this month.
happy birthday to one of my besties Ernawati a.k.a Cia2.
i couldn't believe that we've been friends for 6 years ald.
thank you for always listening to all my thoughts and giving me your fab point of view.
and forgive me because i haven't been a good friend, i've done or said a few things that probably hurts you.
but after all, i wish you all the best, may smile and happiness always follow you where ever you go.


XOXO,

J

scribbling some little things

today is the first day of my second monthly exam, and i realized will also be the last time i experience what so called 'second monthly exam' as next year i will ald graduated from high school..

well, today runs smoothly i can say, though i can only do 60% of my math exam. but who cares, it's my last year! i'm supposed to relax a lil' bit abt school life and focus more for my college exam, right?

anyway, have i told you that i now, work as a playgroup teacher's assistant? i guess not. but, yes, i do work now. today is just my second day, but i can tell you that all of the children are super cute! i hope i can take their pict and post it here to show it to you ;p. my job is quite simpl e actually, i just have to make sure the kids pay attention to the teacher, drink their water, and help them with some lil things.. so it's pretty fun actually :)

okay then, got to go now. c ya.. ;)

-dream as high as u can.sky is the limit. u'll never know how full of surprises ur life can be-

Quick post

It's 12 o'clock already, which means i should already go to sleep, but then i decided to post something, since i've been abandoning my blog for so long. :(

Synergy called me today and told me that we can start to apply to Lasalle already. So all i need to do is ask mommy for the last confirmation, pay the administration fee, and collect all the files that is needed. Oh yes, and prepare my portfolio.

i only got about 3 months left, and i haven't start even a scratch, please just kill me X(

i already have the idea, and all i need to do is make it into a real piece of artwork. so i hope i can finish it in time, or else.

Anyway, angel told me that her mom has agreed to let her enroll in Lasalle too! Superb!

as for my second option, i'll choose Nafa, but i decided to apply online. as it saves me a lot of money than applying it from medan.

Well, wish me luck guys!

:*

-You make your own happiness-

Sorry dear bloggieeeee

my blog looks as dead as a deserted island in planet XXZ

oh God,,,

so sorry '~'

i'll try to post sth in this few days...

c y guys next time.. ;)

stay tune

a little wish on a white post

Today is his birthday, and actually i really wanna give you a few special things today like be the girl who gave you a birthday cake, sing happy birthday song to you, and maybe give you a kiss in your cheek but i couldn't, since i'm your nobody and to consider my love is only a one sided love. If only you know how i envy all his friends around him who can wish him happy birthday eye-to-eye,and gave him a birthday surprise.

So i'd like to share some few things that i wish i can say to you.

"happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you,
happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday to you..
happy birthday boy, hope you have a fantastic day today (as i'm sure your day will be filled with
all your best friend wishing you happy birthday) wish you all the best in everything that you do,
reach every dream that you want,and good health for the whole year."

and last but not least, for once again "happy birthday"

why?

i miss you like crazy
i miss those times
i miss those moments

i love you madly
i love the way you smile
i love just everything in you

there are times when i really really wanna tell you about my feelings to you
but, i am afraid of what other people will think about me
stupid, yes i am
i hate the fact that it's not common here for girls to say "i love you" to the boy they love first
i mean, "why?"
why we may not?
we only want that someone to know, it's not like if we tell them, they have to be our boyfriend
we only want that boy we secretly always look at, we secretly always dream of, to know that there is a girl out there who love him more than he could imagine. we only want them to KNOW
and if they doesn't have any feelings to us, why they can't just act normally? act like how we are before we told you about our feelings, act like "we are friends"
ugh...
i really wish i can tell you

silly?
as long as it is because of you, i'm fine with it.