Quick post

It's 12 o'clock already, which means i should already go to sleep, but then i decided to post something, since i've been abandoning my blog for so long. :(

Synergy called me today and told me that we can start to apply to Lasalle already. So all i need to do is ask mommy for the last confirmation, pay the administration fee, and collect all the files that is needed. Oh yes, and prepare my portfolio.

i only got about 3 months left, and i haven't start even a scratch, please just kill me X(

i already have the idea, and all i need to do is make it into a real piece of artwork. so i hope i can finish it in time, or else.

Anyway, angel told me that her mom has agreed to let her enroll in Lasalle too! Superb!

as for my second option, i'll choose Nafa, but i decided to apply online. as it saves me a lot of money than applying it from medan.

Well, wish me luck guys!

:*

-You make your own happiness-

Sorry dear bloggieeeee

my blog looks as dead as a deserted island in planet XXZ

oh God,,,

so sorry '~'

i'll try to post sth in this few days...

c y guys next time.. ;)

stay tune

a little wish on a white post

Today is his birthday, and actually i really wanna give you a few special things today like be the girl who gave you a birthday cake, sing happy birthday song to you, and maybe give you a kiss in your cheek but i couldn't, since i'm your nobody and to consider my love is only a one sided love. If only you know how i envy all his friends around him who can wish him happy birthday eye-to-eye,and gave him a birthday surprise.

So i'd like to share some few things that i wish i can say to you.

"happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you,
happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday to you..
happy birthday boy, hope you have a fantastic day today (as i'm sure your day will be filled with
all your best friend wishing you happy birthday) wish you all the best in everything that you do,
reach every dream that you want,and good health for the whole year."

and last but not least, for once again "happy birthday"

why?

i miss you like crazy
i miss those times
i miss those moments

i love you madly
i love the way you smile
i love just everything in you

there are times when i really really wanna tell you about my feelings to you
but, i am afraid of what other people will think about me
stupid, yes i am
i hate the fact that it's not common here for girls to say "i love you" to the boy they love first
i mean, "why?"
why we may not?
we only want that someone to know, it's not like if we tell them, they have to be our boyfriend
we only want that boy we secretly always look at, we secretly always dream of, to know that there is a girl out there who love him more than he could imagine. we only want them to KNOW
and if they doesn't have any feelings to us, why they can't just act normally? act like how we are before we told you about our feelings, act like "we are friends"
ugh...
i really wish i can tell you

silly?
as long as it is because of you, i'm fine with it.

Something i rarely do

I'll post a few pics in this post, yeah i know that i rarely do this before, but i have so many random pics in my lappie and i'd like to share a few here. Enjoy.. (:

me and stupid

so problem's solved, thanks to my cousin and my best friend, thanks for the time, for listening to my stupid thoughts, and for giving me solutions. so it was just a dream, dream are only supposed to be a dream, nothing more, nothing less. well u can say i'm feeling much better now and i'm trying not to believe too much in supernatural things like that and just believe in God.

-have faith-

i dreamed..

last night, i dreamed that i lost one of my teeth, i googled for the meaning and i found out that it means that i'll lose someone in my family. call me superstitious but this scares me to hell. Please God, i beg for forgiveness if i ever did something wrong, but please, bless my family, God. I beg you. Please God.

- i pray, i pray, i pray -