exam is going to be over... yipppie??

it's already the 19th of august, which means my monthly exam is going to be over soon, but somehow deep inside my heart i don't want it to end. It doesn't mean that i love to stay awake 'til 2 o'clock in the morning to study, but well, you know what i mean dear bloggie... of course it's because of him, it always is. okay, let's drop the subject.

anyway, since it'll be holiday for the third grade science student tomorrow,so me, suvie and julia decided to take a short break from our studying routine and went to Thamrin Plaza to watch "The Expandables". The storyline is quite good, and it's full of great actors, explosion, and blood. Thank's God there is Jason Statham in the movie, so it's quite worth watching to me, cause i adore him. His accent and his acting too.

well, got to go, i'll continue next time
ciao

--don't stop believing--

so here i am...

so here i am...
doing what a gemini-an good at, which is multitasking.. i'm currently studying physics and on lining...
people might ask, 'how can you study that way?'
well, i don't really know how to ans it, but i cant concentrate well when i'm studying without doing anything else like on lining or watching tv (yeah, i do it everytime)
muhaha

anyway, i know it's already mid august and i haven't start my portfolio for my application to Lasalle yet =="
i hope i can start doing it after i finish my monthly test at school :)
i really want to get accepted in singaporeeee :(
i don't really mind whether it is in Lasalle or NAFA.. as long as it is in Design major and in singapore...
because if not, my mommy will send me to Jakarta.. and that sucks..
i hate jakarta traffic, and especially the fact that i have to stay with my relatives there..
i want to be independent! duh..
living with your relatives, is... i dunno how to say it but, for sure, it'll give you much more drama in your life, i already had enough...
i also haven't bought any ielts or toefl book to enhance my english skills, since i already graduate from my last course and i don't go to any english course now, so i'm afraid that my english skills will get worse...
hais.. so many drama...
but i know that this last year will be very "menentukan" for my future.. so i will of course 'use' this last year wisely..
need to get back to physics now, bye!


-- the greatest failure is not failing after we had tried sth, but when we afraid to try to do sth --
and so far, i've made so many failure then... ~.~

thank's God

thank you God for making my wish came true
i myself still can recall how amazed i was when that thing came true
thanks God, thank you so much. . .

some thoughts

School had started for a few days, and i dunno why but i feel that this year will be better than last year. It doesn’t mean that my new classmates are better than my old one. Well, i still can’t say anything about them though, since i don’t really know them well yet. But, i don’t know why, i feel that this year will be better :)

Anyway, i sat right on the back row, at the corner to be exact. Yes, right at the corner. So it’s pretty damn hard for me to socialize, beside with the two people who sit in front of my table, whom i don’t-know-why sit so far away from my table, and with my deskmate, suvie. So hell yeah, it’s pretty damn boring there. Thank God at least i still have the big window on my other side. Though there aren’t any good view to look at, i still can see the blue sky at least :)

When i was arranging my school book in my bag a few days ago, i saw his picture which i put right on my bookshelf, and it made me feel really grateful. I feel really grateful to know him, because if not because of him, i won’t know how does it feel to love someone. He is afterall from the start always the boy that inspired me so much, from his personality to every little thing of him. So though i can’t have him by my side, i always feel grateful to experienced this one-sided-love, for it taught me a lot if things too. Really, i’d never knew how patience i can be if not because of him, as i am usually the kind of girl who loathe waiting so much, but i don’t know how, i already wait for him for nearly 3 years now. It’s not an amazing thing though, some people might call me stupid i guess for waiting for a boy for so long, but the problem is ‘i just don’t know how’. Or maybe i don’t want to?

your smile is my drug

i'm not quite sure how to write it out, but i indeed feel happy today... maybe.. because i saw him 3 days in a row? i don't know.. but the last thing i know is that i smile with myself like crazy for a few sec after he flashed me his smile today.. okay, i'm quite sure that i had gone crazier.. but this is also the point where my dilemma start to grow bigger..and bigger.. i,indeed want to see him everyday.. all i want is that and if it came true, this will be the best year for me.. but how if i don't? now my eyes can't see anyone else but him again.. what should i do?

things that always made me feel so ambitious

this post is dedicated to every little things and people that always made me feel ambitious to fulfill my dream =) enjoy~

my family

these are all the people that i love the most. the people that i always want to be happy, and the people that i want to make happy. it is for them that i study well and always do the best.
sorry i don't post any pics here =( i was blogging through my bro's pc and there is nothing here beside games and songs =="

my friends

the people who always cheer me up. the people who give me a lot of ideas. the people whom i share laughter and tears with. i feel so blessed to have you guys =)

Deviant Art

i love browsing images here. i don't know why but the creative atmosphere is very strong here! this website gaves me a lot of inspirations and always made me excited to fulfill my dream to be a designer

America's next top modelmy most favorite reality show ever!

why i love this show? because the winner is not judged by "sending text messages" but they are judged by expert people in the area. The contestants are not a famous model, but just some 'next-to-door' girl. So we'll see their transformation from being a next to door girl into a 'fierce' supermodel.
1 more thing, this show also give feedback and useful tips for girls learning to be a model!
some pics =)

this is nicole, winner of cycle 13
her pictures are simply gorgeous
see?this one is mckey (cvcle 11)
also one of my favorite winnerand this is london (cycle 12)
she doesn't win, but i love her hairstyle so much...
actually her pictures are quite good

cute stuffs, cute things, cute blogs

i don't know why i always feel excited and inspired when i saw cute things while i'm browsing or going to a shop (maybe cause i am a girl after-all. lol) there aren't any particular website that i usually open to search cute stuffs. i just click-click-click! :P

i think it's a wrap for this post.
i can't think of anything else already. lol

keep on trying. keep on believing

well, i got my report today..
actually i already can see my score yesterday..
about my score...
i really don't know how i should express my feelings about it
i don't know i should feel grateful or feel disappointed about it

i'm happy that i still made it to the big 10 rank
but i'm disappointed because i can't get into the big 200 rank for my parallel rank
and i fell like i want to cry when i see my english score
it really is the lowest score now
it even beat my last PB score
it's lowerrrrr
maybe it's my fault for not studying well :(((((


and i always dream of being in a plus class you know
but since i'm not in the big 160 rank i guess i should bid that wish goodbye
:'( :'( :'(

so it's much more like this :

wish list :
[ X ] go to the + class
instead of putting a crosscheck mark, i should put a big X there


the good thing is i manage to stay positive and believe in GOD
so no matter how impossible i think it is.....
i believe that nothing is impossible if we believe in GOD........

so i end up like this :

wish list :
go to the + class or go to a better class than my 2nd grade class

peaceeeeeeeee.....
wish me luck guys
and sutomo... be kind to me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee????